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Daily Examen 2/19/10

February 20, 2010

Philippians 4:4-9
4 Rejoice* in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice.* 5 Let your gentleness be known to everyone. The Lord is near. 6Do not worry about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. 7And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

8 Finally, beloved,* whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is pleasing, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence and if there is anything worthy of praise, think about* these things. 9Keep on doing the things that you have learned and received and heard and seen in me and the God of peace will be with you.

Yesterday I was reflecting on the doubt and concern that one experiences when we decide to move forward trusting in God, giving up our backup plans and allowing God to be our only safety net.

It is hard and sometimes worrisome especially when you are allowing God to disturb you, to push you to be a better person. Today is my younger brother’s 50th birthday. And while we gather to joyfully celebrate this milestone, it also serves as another wake up calls about where one I am in my life. Is my walk going where it needs to? I am practicing being slow to speak, slow to anger? (Well most of the time if you don’t count my calls to offshore tech support or insurance clerks, something that I should probably give up at least for Lent.)

But then I sat down to start the morning reflection and open the lectionary to find a passage like this one and I am reassured.

Daily Examen 2/18/10

February 19, 2010

I surrender all to You
The past the years to come right now
With every breath I bring to You
My hopes and fears and long discarded dreams
Take them from my trembling hands
Before I lose my nerve and change my mind
Tear to shreds my safety net
And rip up every back up plan I make

From Surrender by Karen Money

Surrendering all that was, and is, and is to be to Your will. That is a tough challenge. It is easy to let go of our past sins and life. It is a little harder to give up things in the now, especially if we are comfortable with the now. There is a lot more uncertainty about surrendering control over the future.

The reading today from Deuteronomy has Moses reporting the following:

15 See, I have set before you today life and prosperity, death and adversity. 16 If you obey the commandments of the LORD your God* that I am commanding you today, by loving the LORD your God, walking in his ways, and observing his commandments, decrees, and ordinances, then you shall live and become numerous, and the LORD your God will bless you in the land that you are entering to possess.
17 But if your heart turns away and you do not hear, but are led astray to bow down to other gods and serve them, 18 I declare to you today that you shall perish; you shall not live long in the land that you are crossing the Jordan to enter and possess.

I can appreciate the fears and nerves in changing the back up plan to one of total faith and reliance on the Lord. To do this, requires me to live the way He wants me to live. That is what I am working on – through study, reflection, diet, and exercise, trying to live a more deliberate life.

Daily Examen 2/17/10 a

February 17, 2010

Attende Domine
Hear us, O Lord, and have mercy, because we have sinned against Thee

A Gregorian Chant opened the reflection this morning. It is a hymn that had been sung for countless years on Ash Wednesday.

How comforting to know that even though we are common dust, although we are all sinners, guilty of all manner of sin, there is grace and hope for us.

Hope for all of us by a sacrifice made for each of us. Providing us holy freedom. Freedom from sin and from bondage.

Although I am but dust please help me live in this time alotted as you would have me live. Let me work to make a difference.

Daily Examen 02/16 to 2/17/10

February 17, 2010

Report on the Diocesan Council

12 Blessed is anyone who endures temptation. Such a one has stood the test and will receive the crown of life that the Lord* has promised to those who love him. 13 No one, when tempted, should say, ‘I am being tempted by God’; for God cannot be tempted by evil and he himself tempts no one. 14But one is tempted by one’s own desire, being lured and enticed by it;15 then, when that desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin, and that sin, when it is fully grown, gives birth to death.16 Do not be deceived, my beloved.* 17 Every generous act of giving, with every perfect gift, is from above, coming down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change.* 18 In fulfillment of his own purpose he gave us birth by the word of truth, so that we would become a kind of first fruits of his creatures. 19 You must understand this, my beloved:* let everyone be quick to listen, slow to speak, slow to anger; 20for your anger does not produce God’s righteousness. James 1:12-20

Folks: Before discussing the Council, I thought that it was important to start my report with a passage of scripture, and the daily reflection I am using is currently on the Epistle of St. James. It speaks to me about temptation, the temptation to rush to judgment, the temptation to blame someone for our situation. It also offers guidance about how we should behave, being slow to speak and slow to anger.

We should all reflect on this because, if you have not heard already heard, our Calvary Contingent was not seated at the Diocesan Council.

While we knew that this was a possibility (as I had previously informed Delegates and Vestry via email), it has been the norm or practice to seat Parishes that were in arrears with their Diocesan Assessments. When we arrived, we were not given our credentials and were told to talk to the Diocesan Treasurer, Bob Biehl. Unfortunately, we were unable to meet with him on Friday.

Friday evening was spent in fellowship with the members of the other Churches of our Diocese. We got to visit with our Seminarian Mitch and his wife Camille. We were able to visit with our previous Seminarian, now the Reverend Chris Duncan, see old friends and make some new acquaintances. Eucharist was celebrated and the sermon delivered by the Episcopal Bishop for Chaplaincy (who is in charge of all Episcopal Chaplains in the Service). We enjoyed a good dinner, and retired for the evening with the question unresolved about our being seated.

On Saturday morning we returned to the Council and still were without credentials. We had to wait for the Diocese to resolve the issue about seating Parishes that were in arrears with their 2009 Diocesan Assessment. Unfortunately, this year, the Diocesan Executive Board took a harder line and eight Parishes were not initially seated.
There was then a motion to allow the three Parishes that had either suffered from a congregational split, or who had presented the Diocese a plan to repay their 2009 assessment. Calvary and four other parishes were not included in this motion which passed.

Our delegation moved out of the Council room and into a hallway to discuss the situation. Reb volunteered to contact Bishop Doyle and Bob Biehl and see if he would meet with us. Mr. Biehl agreed to meet with us at the break and discuss the situation. Bob Biehl also let us know that he had tried to contact me by phone on Thursday afternoon to tell me that we would not be seated (unfortunately I was out of the office.)

At the break, Bob Biehl met with us. He explained that they would seat us if we could work out a way to pay the remainder ($52K) of our 2009 Diocesan Assessment. He did say that the Diocese Executive Board was taking a harder line since the majority of the parishes were able to make their assessment in spite of the economic downturn. He also said that Frankie was a previous President of the Standing Committee and there was concern in the Executive Board that if leniency was shown to Calvary (which may appear to be due to Frankie’s previous status on the Executive Board), there would be no incentive to pay the assessment.

Having watched our 2010 budget come together, I could not promise on the behalf of the Diocese that we could pay the remainder of our 2009 Assessment. Mr. Biehl said he understood our financial situation. There were several times in 2009 that we have discussed our financial status with the Diocese, (when we did not get the seminarian, when we had to submit reports to the Diocese, the September meeting with the Executive Board, the meeting with the Canon and Mr. Biehl in December). We acknowledged that there were consequences to our decision not to pay the assessment, and not being seated at this Council was one of them.

Mr. Biehl was asked what it would take to be made whole with the Diocese, would this debt prevent the Diocese from working with us. He explained that the debt would be written off and forgiven. He also said that by committing to and paying our 2010 Assessment, that we would have Voice and Vote in the 2011 Diocesan Council. The Delegation thanked Mr. Biehl for his consideration, and decided to leave the Council and return to Richmond.

Feelings have been hurt, and folks are feeling embarrassed and disappointed that we could not participate. The question has been posed “Are we (Calvary) being punished for Frankie’s actions (inactions, politics, lack of communication, etc.)?” That at least is the perception, and it may have influenced some on the Executive Board. There will be those that will believe that he influenced us to withhold money because of Diocesan\National Church politics.

I called Frankie to discuss this. He is deeply sorry that the Diocese appears to be punishing us for him. He expected backlash directed towards him. He did point out that we did communicate with the Diocese on several occasions about our financial status.

The previous Vestry has discussed in detail the potential repercussions of the 2009 budget and the decision not to pay the assessment. We faced a $100k shortfall from the previous year’s pledging. The economic down turn did not help. We were faced with a choice of cutting all paid Church staff or paying the Assessment. We decided that cutting staff would not grow our Church. Growing our Church and increasing our Actual Pledge Offerings is our way out of the budget issue. We realized that there would be consequences.

Our concern was focused primarily on losing Parish status and being reverted to mission status. Losing voice & vote was discussed. Frankie did say that in the past he had voted against seating parishes in arrears on assessment, but it was always overturned at Council. There was consensus with the Vestry to pass the budget we passed. I will continue to stand by that decision.

We should not read additional meaning into decision not to seat Calvary, we were not the only Church Delegation not seated (one delegation did not even attend). The Diocese did attempt to work with us up to the end where we decided that I could not commit us for the additional money without discussion with the Vestry and the parish.

We should not fall into temptation to blame others for decisions that we reached together. We should move forward following what St. James says, “ask God, who gives to all generously and ungrudgingly, and it will be given you. 6But ask in faith, never doubting, for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, driven and tossed by the wind; 7, 8for the doubter, being double-minded and unstable in every way, must not expect to receive anything from the Lord.

Yes we reap what we sow, we did not pay our dues, and we were not seated. What do we do next? We move on. We work harder on Stewardship, we make some tough choices, we explain to the congregation the consequences of those choices, and we live by them. We have not burned any bridges with the Diocese. We are continuing to reach out to them and look for their guidance.

We will come together as a parish to determine mission, vision, and core values, and assess what is important to us. We need to move forward in faith.

Respectfully submitted